I'm not the most jolly person to deal with. I have brat-like tendencies and extremely, unattainably high expectations. I complain about practically everything and shoot down all your ideas, even when you're tryna help me solve said problems. I sometimes go overboard with my jokes and sometimes make you feel as though you're an inadequate boyfriend. I tend to put my best friends and family before you, and we've both agreed that in this relationship you love me more, and probably will always love me more than I can ever love you. I take more than I should and give less than you deserve.
But you're still here. You've always been here.
And sometimes it may seem like I'm nonchalant when it comes to our relationship, but in truth, at the end of the day, I want nothing more than to drift to sleep in your arms, every night, for the rest of my life. Kuv hlub koj. (smitten)(adore)

That's right yall. Today is my boyfriend's and my 3 year and 4 month anniversary. He came to surprise me :)
We went to grab breakfast with a couple friends and then he and I went to PetCo to lookit the hamsters. I adore hamsters (heart) We picked up some stuff for Maks, our cat and when we got back to the car, his car was dead and wouldn't start up! We called up his lil bro and got his to jump his car. Poor boyfriend got late to work though I think (sweat)
But ANYWAYS, after coming home, my day was ruined. I needa give yall a bit of background first, just to show the dynamics of the friendship, so ok. We met in highschool and had mutual friends, but we weren't friends ourselves. The year prior to last, I lived in TN and I met this friend again, let's call him Mike. So Mike is a good friend of my ex and so that's another thing that kinda affects our friendship, but that's not the point. Mike and I were really good friends that year, but nearing the end of the year, he started to become really needy and acted as though I was obligated to hang with him and just, I dunno, he took a lot of my jokes personally, but wouldn't tell me they bothered him until he was really fed up and then he'd throw it all in my face and so I just kinda stopped feeling that closeness of friendship with him.
That year when I came back to Cali, he was deployed and so I barely talked to him. Coming back from TN this passed summer, I haven't texted him or anything, kinda slipped my mind. But he hasn't tried to contact me either. And just earlier I saw him on AIM so I aimed him.

• [17:00] Mike: hey
• [17:00] Mike: whats up
• [17:01] imctina: nothing chillin you?
• [17:02] Mike: bout to head out
• [17:02] imctina: boo alright i guess imma catch ya another time then?
• [17:02] Mike: you can text me
• [17:03] imctina: your phone works?
• [17:03] Mike: yea
• [17:03] Mike: when hasnt it work?
• [17:03] imctina: oh iono haha
• [17:03] Mike: sounds like an excuse to me (It was at this moment I started to get offended)
  
• [17:03] imctina: whoa whoa an excuse to do what
• [17:03] imctina: ?
• [17:04] Mike: an excuse on why you havent talked to me since you been back =(
• [17:04] imctina: you havent talked to me either..
• [17:05] Mike: because i been so upset that you been gone that i filled up my time with other stuff
• [17:05] imctina: THAT sounds like an excuse
• [17:05] Mike: its true
• [17:06] imctina: and its true that I legitimately thought your phone wasnt workin

Like... really? Maybe I'm making a big deal about it, but when someone belittles my efforts as a friend, that makes me belittle theirs and I honestly felt he was attacking me. Like if I was trying not to talk to you, I wouldn't have aimed you in the first place and we wouldn't ever talk, seeing as how you never make an effort to text, aim, or facebook me.
Like if I consider you my friend, that really is saying something, b/c believe me, I've been backstabbed and treated poorly by way too many times that I take it seriously when someone questions my friendship. That pretty much makes me reconsider where I stand in the friendship and makes me question your place in my circle of friends.

This'll be a rather quick post. I'm feeling kinda lazy to talk as I usually do. But anywho, yesterday I had a date with my BFs, boyfriend and bestfriend. We went for some Burma Superstar. Food was alright, though I wasn't too fond of the dessert. I can't remember what it's called, but it had bananas and I think that's what ruined it for me. Then my awesome boyfriend (who keep in mind, has been up for 24hrs at least) drove up an hours drive, took us to eat and then drove back down another hour and half or so to the beach!

Poor Tou fell asleep on my at the beach (adore)

After he woke up gave him a little rub on his neck and found that he had forgotten to take the tag from his shirt off (smitten)

Like sometimes I don't even wanna deal with my eldest brother. He's so damn stuck up sometimes, I can't ask a simple question without him makin me feel like my question was dumb.

He's been back from Japan for the past 3 weeks or so and is leaving tomorrow. He decides to buy a shit load of Ghirardelli chocolates for his coworkers/students. So I'm watching my momma pack his chocolates and I ask him, "Aren't you worried your chocolates are gonna melt?" And he says to me, "There's not much I can do about it." with the most matter-of-factly, no-shit-you're-so-dumb tone and I'm just like wtf? (annoy) If you were smart about it, you wouldn't have bought some damn chocolates to bring back to your posse, in the middle of summer!

But it's not just that though. Like, I swear, he goes outta his way to make me feel bad and make me feel like I don't belong. He treats me so damn differently than he does my other siblings. He treats me like an outsider and doesn't even make an effort to talk to me. It's upsetting, yea. But honestly at this point I'm just apathetic about the whole situation. He doesn't want me in his life, I won't try to keep him in mine. (apathy)

So, it's probably been a bit overdue now, but I think I really needa save up for a new laptop. So a bit background: Gateway MT6459, Windows Vista purchased in August 2007.

Yea, I've had it for awhile (sweat) Now, I love my laptop. It's reliable, for the most part. I normally use it 10hrs + everyday (not good to be in front of a comp for such an extended period of time, I know). Even if I'm not physically in front of the comp using, I usually have music running from it, so it's pretty much always on. All my friends who received a laptop coming into college have needed a laptop replacement/part replacement after their 2nd year at latest. Me? None. You know the blue screen of death? I've had like 9. Aside from the annoying random shutoffs (after one shutoff, it will stay on without a problem for the rest of the day) and the incessant whirring of the fan b/c of the laptop's inability to cool itself down, I've had no problems. With that said, I think my poor thing has finally had to give up on me (cry) It's just faded out on me. Usually, when it shutdown down it blanks out immediately. This one was rather slow, more of a "'I can't go on' at the climax of the movie" fade out (disappoint) Not just that, but it won't start up at all now. I mean it does, but then it'll do the fade out again. I guess the time had to come, but.... man. It was so... not unexpected... just disappointing. I thought the time was upon me, so just earlier today I backed up my files onto my ehd (tire). Man...

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And then I remember I got a netbook. But its capabilities are rather limited and slow.