playstopMinus the Bear - Pachuca Sunrise

I don't expect to see you every free moment you have. I don't expect you to put your friends second to me. I don't expect to you to check in with me every single time you go out. But I do expect you to keep your word. I expect you to know better than to make plans with me and then go out LATE the night before. I know you haven't hung out with him in a while. Honest to God, that is fine by me, go hang out with him, but I would've rathered you cancelling our plans to hang with him. Instead you had a pretense of "Yes, you'd be able to get up to come see me." I know it's not easy to come see me, I know it's a hassle, esp. having to get up that early. I would've understood.

And I feel I keep wasting my efforts for you.
Time and again shit happens and things don't go according to plan. I know, but you should also know this could've been prevented.

Pass?

And then you went back to sleep. If you were tired, just tell me so. Tell me you're going to sleep so I don't think, "Hmmm maybe he's fucking with me and is trying to surprise me." Coz when you do that, I assume. And when I assume, I make an ass outta you and me. So ultimately I guess it's my fault.

I'm starting to get tired of people.

If you tell me your problems and ask for my opinion, I'll give you my honest opinion as a first and foremost an outsider, and then as a friend. Admittedly it doesn't come out as eloquently as I imagined and comes out rather harshly, but that is only because I'm telling you exactly everything that is coming to mind.
I'm tired of feeling attacked by people who come to me for help. I'm saying what is on my mind with intention to help, not hurt you.
And the moment you attack me for giving my honest opinion, I will no shit snap back. You get mad at me for cutting you off? Boy, you don't fucking realize you do that shit to me. ALL. THE. TIME. And the only reason I fucking cut you off is because you are justifying yourself, and I have already acknowledge that! I KNOW why you doing it, but I still believe that you're wasting your time.

YOU come to ME with YOUR issues, asking for my help and the moment I say something you don't want to hear, I'm the bad guy?
That shit is fucked on all kinds of levels.

Then there are those who turn to me when they say "I've got no one else." And I'm there to listen, talk, whatever you need. But the moment shit gets better, I'm suddenly invisible, right? Well that's how it feels sometimes.

You wonder why I don't have many friends? Coz they come when they need me and leave when they don't. They disrespect me and when I put them in their place, I'm the one in the wrong. People are hypocrites, only difference is, I acknowledge my own hypocrisy when present.

Tonight is just one of those nights.